Sunday, 6/3/2001
Copyright (c) 2001, Michael Dickerson. All Rights Reserved.
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Hi, incredible ones ~

Uh-oh. As I start writing this I�m watching the beginning of the PBS part of the Tony Awards show. I love all the awards shows. The reason for the �uh-oh� is that they�re always very emotional for me. I want to be there. I want to be involved in the work. I want to be part of the �club.� It�s definitely one of my paths not taken. I must have been involved in show biz in another lifetime. Part of me thinks I should have been in this one. Part of me thinks there�s still time for me to be in this one. God Only Knows What hasn�t been enough.

You know the old Buddhist saying, �Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water�? I have a vaguely similar thought. No matter what, we have some of what we like and some of what we don�t; we have some highs and some lows � no matter what. Well, I�ve had some of each in the past couple of days. What a terrible shock to my system. No, I�m not serious � about the shock, anyway.

You may recall that I said that my current housesit will end in a couple of weeks and that I�ll need to find another place to live. Well, Spirit has moved again. Serendipity has sung its way into my life once more. I�m going to San Diego (Vista, actually) for a couple of weeks during the end of June and beginning of July. Get this: A woman I�ve house and petsat for previously (prior to her moving south) needs someone while she�s out of town to take care of her pets and resort-like home. She�s going to pay for me to fly down there, let me use her car, and pay me for the work. An added benefit: Robert and Marcia Neel live right around the corner from her. (Robert is the man whose house I lived in a year ago. He�s also a Leap staff person.) Sound good? It does to me. (All but the flying part. Do you know that I�m phobic about flying?)

However, there is a down side to it. It means I�ll be missing a party I wanted to go to and the annual Warrior Spirit 4th of July picnic and extravaganza. C�est la vie, je suppose. There are always trade-offs for everything we do.

And isn�t that interesting, since in a couple of months I�ll be missing everything here in the Puget Sound area? I�ll be doing a huge trade-off to move to Santa Fe.

By the way, this is also interesting because before Santa Fe chose me (or Spirit let me know I was to choose Santa Fe), I thought I would probably be moving to San Diego. How interesting that I�d be sent there for a visit before I move. What do you suppose it means?

So, you may recall, I spoke about highs and lows. The downside for me today is massive frustration with my computer connection (again). As of this moment, I haven�t been able to get e-mail for 29 hours (and counting). Even in past times when I�ve been having troubles connecting, I�ve nearly always been able to do so in the middle of the night. Last night I was up nearly all night trying to connect. I�d connect, but at too slow a speed to get e-mail or to download web pages. I feel really out of touch. And part of me wonders if I�m not missing something important. But, on the other hand, another part wonders if there isn�t some good coming from this that I just don�t understand yet.

Hey, folks, I realize that I haven�t mentioned sex once in these letters for a long time. That reflects my skill at censoring myself far more than the reality of the interest it holds for me. So, there, I�ve mentioned it now.

It occurs to me that I may have opened something up. Watch � my next letter will consist of unending eroticism, a tribute to bountiful lust and frustrated desire. (Okay, does this mean the readership will rise dramatically?)

I didn�t say it.

The upside computer-wise (see, I just turned right back to something less . . . . less titillating . . . . less entertaining) is that I am getting everything cleaned up � addresses changed, subscriptions terminated, formats switched to plain text, new subscriptions entered, and more. As much as I�ve put it off, some part of me really does love the organization I�m creating.

And I�ve begun sorting in earnest to move. 2 carloads. That�s all I�ll keep. Everything else goes. Talk about a lesson in minimizing, in voluntary simplicity. Whatever I release here, I�ll replace there, if it�s important to me in my new home. I�m sure it won�t be a problem. I�m being guided; I�m not being taken to Santa Fe to suffer. I�m being taken there to make a difference. Everything I need will be provided.

So, anyway, I have 12 days before I need to get everything out of here and into storage. That means 12 days to do a major sorting out.

Hey, the CBS part of the Tony Awards is just coming on! I want to act! I want to sing! I want to dance! I want to entertain!

And I just wrote all the way through Touched by an Angel. It was a good one about following guidance instead of relying on luck. That couldn�t possibly have been speaking to me, could it? I surrender to Spirit, and I commit to going wherever I�m led. Again. Still. God has something in mind for me. I follow. Watch the way be opened!

Tess (in Touched by an Angel) said tonight that when something happens that we don�t like, God means for it to bring something good. Thanks for the reminder, Della. I guess there really must be something good coming from my not being able to connect to the internet.

What a life! What a life.

Namaste,
Michael

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