THIS IS MY LIFE
Monday, 6/17/2002
Copyright (c) 2002, Michael (Dickerson) Deluno. All Rights Reserved. Reproduction or quotation is strictly prohibited without permission.

Hi, y�all ~

I met Cassandra at Unity Santa Fe one Sunday morning April 21. I was immediately attracted to her. No, I don�t just mean physically � and I don�t not mean that, either. A big part of my attraction was energetic and appreciating who she is and how she shows up in life. Then, on top of that, the synchronicity began to appear. I always follow synchronicity, especially when there are several instances of it relating to the same person, place, or event. I�ve experienced repeatedly that synchronicity is one of the significant ways that Spirit speaks to me. The first example was this: In our talking, we discovered that she had known Kathy, who I knew for a couple of years in Seattle during the late �70s (and had almost become a housemate of), as a co-resident at Ken Keyes� Cornucopia Institute in Kentucky during the early �80s. She told me she�d let me know if she found out where Kathy is now. I had the thought that early that I might conceivably fall in love with her if circumstances were right for that.

I think that the next time I saw her was the next couple of evenings at workshops presented by Michael Ryce at Unity Santa Fe. Every time I saw her, I started a conversation with her. The more I got to know her, the more I liked her and the more I was attracted to her. At one of the workshops, I intended to sit with her, but found that she was sitting with a man. I had no idea of what their relationship was, so I backed off. After the workshop, though, I talked with her and met him. I�ve since learned that he�s �only� a friend.

Then Cassandra considered and interviewed for a job at Unity Santa Fe that would have made her my co-worker. When she decided not to take it, I was disappointed for personal reasons as well as because I thought she�d be a great addition to the staff.

After that I didn�t see her for weeks. I knew that she was going to be traveling, so I wasn�t particularly surprised that she was gone. I was surprised at how long it was, though. I trusted, however, that if it was spiritually appropriate for us to connect in any way beyond what we already had, she would come back into my life.

During that time I made plans to return to Seattle to staff Leap of Faith and to sort through my belongings and make the last of my move to Santa Fe. I planned to leave Sunday, June 2.

Early in the week before I was to leave, Cassandra called Unity Santa Fe about a tape she had ordered. I answered the phone. That was the first time I�d heard from her again. I was pleased to hear from her and not at all surprised that she had reappeared. I think this is a great story.

At the end of the conversation, after we�d finished the business about the tape, Spirit urged her to ask me if I had anything else to tell her. (Another reason for me to be attracted to her.) Spirit spoke through me, and I told her that I was leaving soon for Seattle to staff the Leap. She asked me about it and was very interested. So I asked her if she�d like to come with me to take it (another instance of Spirit speaking through me). She said that she�d look at the web site and would have to see if she could rearrange some things so she could go.

Not long after, she called and had sent in her money and was working on her schedule. Within a few days, she had rearranged her life so that she could make the trip. I was quite surprised and pleased.

What followed were a series of e-mail exchanges about traveling together that explored everything from idiosyncrasies to sex. Cassandra asked me if I was married and if there was a woman who�d be distressed by our traveling together. I was uncertain what that meant, so I asked if she was assuming that we�d sleep together (my first guess about the motivation for that question) and told her that I wasn�t assuming that, but was also open to it if it seemed right for both of us. That led to a clear agreement that we wouldn�t be sexual during our trip no matter what. (I'm making this �short.�) We also set a clear intention that our time together would be healing for both of us.

Those e-mails left me very eager to know her more. She was the most honest, open, emotionally fluent and responsible woman I�d ever had the pleasure to communicate with.

We made our plans to leave together after church on Sunday, June 2.

I'll continue with part 2 of the story in my next edition.

Namaste,
Michael

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