THIS IS MY LIFE
Wednesday, 7/24/2002
Copyright (c) 2002, Michael (Dickerson) Deluno. All Rights Reserved. Reproduction or quotation is strictly prohibited without permission.

Hi, you ~

The Cassandra saga is continuing. I haven�t forgotten about it. She stayed with me off and on for 8 days after my last update. Part of the time was really comfortable/friendly. A bit of the time was confrontational. Then she took off, and we�ve stayed in touch via e-mail and have continued the processing that way. It�s been a roller-coaster ride. More about what I'm learning soon. (Yes, I know I�ve said that before. I'll write about it when I'm ready.)

I�ve known another woman (Niara) since we met via an online personal ad last August. Because we have so much in common and because a comparison of our astrology charts said that we�re extremely well matched for romance, we decided to explore that possibility with each other, despite her living in Durango, CO, and me, of course, in Santa Fe. So, I went up to Durango 7/11-14. It turned out that the chemistry/energy wasn�t there, but we had a good time anyway. She�ll be a good friend.

While I was there, she took me to meet several of her friends. I was extremely attracted to one of them (Katrina). (No, it didn�t bother Niara. It was fine with her.) What was oddly synchronistic is that Katrina and Cassandra know each other from their days in Austin, TX. Anyway, she wasn�t interested, so that one didn�t work out, either.

The good news is that I didn�t reject myself by thinking she wouldn�t be interested and not asking. I�d rather ask and be rejected than never ask. So I feel good about that.

Anyway, that was a remarkable 6 weeks or so, exploring romantic possibilities with 3 women. That�s very unusual for me. I often go months without feeling that interested in anyone.

Now I find myself willing to take more time and put more energy into exploring options with women. We shall see what comes. It feels like it�s finally time to move relationally.

And, as I said, I'll come back to what I'm learning in a message soon. There�s a lot.

There are other things going on in my life, too, believe it or not. My job is okay, but not thrilling. It�s comfortable, but it isn�t my real life�s work. It�s time to get moving with what�s really mine to do. Related to that, I�ve been co-facilitating a grief group (how synchronistic), and I did the Sunday morning talk at The Celebration a few weeks ago. It�s an independent metaphysical church. So, I'm making progress, but not quickly enough for me to be satisfied.

I'm meeting people and making friends. I'm not making enough money. I'm in charge of the annual auction at Unity Santa Fe. I did an 8-day house and pet sit 4th of July week. Those are the highlights, I guess.

As I keep saying, more later.

Namaste,
Michael

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