THIS IS MY LIFE
Monday, 9/9/2002
Copyright (c) 2002, Michael (Dickerson) Deluno. All Rights Reserved. Reproduction or quotation is strictly prohibited without permission.

Hi, you readers of my life ~

I know. I know. All you�ve heard about for a long time is how things have gone with Cassandra. I do have more going on in my life than that. I swear I do. And here�s my proof of that.

But, first, let me tell you a little more about . . .

CASSANDRA:
I neglected to tell you about one bit of synchronicity. All along Cassandra kept saying that she didn�t see what I saw in our interactions, that it didn�t feel all that intimate to her, all that unique. (Recently, though, she has acknowledged that she�s able to be unusually present, which is exactly what I was talking about.) Anyway, shortly after we returned to Santa Fe I heard a song on the radio that I�d never heard before. I�ve heard it again quite a few times since. The title is �Walking After You,� and it�s sung by The Eels (who I hadn�t heard of before, either). One line of the song jumped out at me. It goes: �You don�t have a clue what it�s like to be next to you.� Yeah, she didn�t.

I also forgot to tell you about the pendulum work we did together early in July. The most important results were that she and I have been together in many previous lives and that I�ve loved her in all of them. We�ve had a variety of kinds of relationships, though. In one life I was her bodyguard or something like that. In other lives, we have been lovers. However, according to the pendulum, being lovers isn�t our destiny for this lifetime. I thought that was pretty much the end of it for her.

Then I saw Cassandra again a bit over a week ago, and we spent a couple of enjoyable hours together. One of the things she told me is that in a session with a spirit guide, she had asked about our relationship. The guide had confirmed that we had been lovers in other lifetimes and that we aren�t to be lovers this time through. (I feel a little sad as I write that.) It touched me that she had asked, that it was significant enough for her to ask about.

At the end of our time together, Cassandra said that she was glad that the energy had changed between us so much and that we can be friends. I'm not aware that the energy has changed that much. I still love her, and I still feel in love with her when we�re together. The only thing that�s changed is that I�ve given up any hope that she�ll ever want to be my romantic partner. I guess that is a change in energy. I guess she just wasn�t comfortable with my actively desiring that. Now it�s more just a wish.

And then Cassandra took off for Tucson, which, according to her guidance, is her next stop in life. Farewell, Cassandra.

I don�t promise that there won�t be more about her, but I'm ready now to talk about other things in my life. So, here we go:

Wait. . . If I go on now, this will get really long and take another day or 2. I guess I'll send this as it is.

I really do have other things in my life. Really. I swear.

But that�s a topic for my next letter.

Namaste,
Michael

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