THIS IS MY LIFE
Friday, 3/29/2002
Copyright (c) 2002, Michael (Dickerson) Deluno. All Rights Reserved. Reproduction or quotation is strictly prohibited without permission.
Hi, you who care to read this ~
Oh, my God. As Marianne Williamson (you�ll see how synchronistic it is that I�d think of her right now in a moment) teaches us to pray, �God, I'm wildly attracted to this woman. You know how crazy I can become when that occurs. I turn this over to You. Make it serve Your purposes and be for the highest benefit of all beings. Thank You, and so it is. Amen�
Yes, I�ve met a woman who I feel wildly attracted to. Some fearful part of me says not to tell anyone because I'll end up looking like a fool. And here I am telling you anyway.
I went to Unity Santa Fe�s Good Friday service this evening. Part of it was a performance of �Planctus Mariae: The Lament of Mary and Others on Good Friday.� It�s a translation of a 12th Century Italian music drama. It was VERY powerful � way beyond anything I expected.
A woman sat in front of me, and I immediately noticed her. She�s one of those artsy counter-culture types that I often find attractive. But at first it was just noticing. After the service and performance, I was talking with several people, including her, about how moving it was. I learned that she was the choreographer. (Artist/performer. There�s one of the characteristics that really catches my attention.)
A friend of mine (Kismine) introduced me to her and told her about me, including my training in psychology. As the group was breaking up, she came over to me and said in her beautiful thick accent (another attraction for me), �I'm a psychologist in my country.� (There it was, the other of the Big 2. I often say that most of the women I'm really attracted to are a combination of artist/performer/writer and people-helper.)
Her name is Marianna (get the synchronicity with Marianne Williamson?), and she�s from Argentina. (Pronounce Marianna with Spanish �a�s � �Mah-ri-ah-nuh.�)
Kismine began taking photos of the cast for future publicity purposes. Marianna asked me to sit down with her and leaned against me. From then on, we touched quite a bit for 2 people who�ve just met. I discount that, though, by thinking that maybe she�s just an unusually touchy person (another attraction to me, by the way). And, in fact, she showed that to be true when she joined the cast for some photos.
So, I don�t have any idea if she�s interested in me. But the woman who put Planctus Mariae together and who sang the part of Mary, mother of Jesus (Mary Jo) is also my choir director, so we have a friend in common. If it�s in accordance with my spiritual destiny, I'll see her again.
Of course, I'll help that along by asking Mary Jo about her.
God save me.
Namaste,
Michael
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ABOUT THIS IS MY LIFE
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This Is My Life is my letters to my family, friends, and whoever else may be interested about whatever is meaningful to me in my life. I don't guarantee anything about content or frequency. The letters will be whatever they turn out to be. If you want the best option available for keeping up with what�s happening with me, though, this is it.
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You�re welcome to freely redistribute This Is My Life (my letters) if you think someone might be interested in reading it. Please don�t use any of it for profit, though.
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MY COMMUNITY
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Another excellent way to know what�s going on with me is to join the Heart Song Community e-mail list. That�s an e-mail community that provides opportunity for discussing a variety of topics and sharing about our personal lives. You can get more information and join at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HeartSongCommunity
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If you�re interested in my work, I invite you to take a look at the Heart Song Schedules. They provide information about the e-zines, classes, workshops, retreats, ministry, and other programs offered by Heart Song Institute, Heart Song Associates, and Heart Song Ministry. See the most recent schedules at either http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HeartSongSchedule/messages or http://www.topica.com/lists/HSSchedule@igc.topica.com/read
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Friday, March 29, 2002
Sunday, March 24, 2002
THIS IS MY LIFE
Sunday, 3/24/2002
Copyright (c) 2002, Michael (Dickerson) Deluno. All Rights Reserved. Reproduction or quotation is strictly prohibited without permission.
Hi, you fabulous people ~
It feels to me like life has suddenly gone into overdrive and I'm still in third gear.
Here�s the rest of the update from a few days ago plus an update on the update.
The biggest news is that the bulk of my focus is turning from my health to my finances and work. I'm getting over my cold (or whatever it was), and everything else appears fine physically now, so it�s time to move on.
Several friends have blessed me with comments and questions about my consciousness about money. I am beyond grateful for their inspiration to take another look.
One friend, who lives her life as a minister-in-disguise, wrote me asking, �What is it within you that believes you are not worthy of money?� She was just slightly off-target, but close enough to stir something important to the surface. So, thank you, Bobbie.
The truth is that even though I perceive myself as more than worthy, I believe that other people don�t perceive me the same way. All my life I�ve thought that other people didn�t see the value I have within. That notion, of course, had its genesis in my upbringing when I was repeatedly told that people wouldn�t like me or appreciate me if I expressed who I really am. Instead, I was urged to do whatever it took to please people. Unfortunately (or, as I perceive it, fortunately), I couldn�t do that. I felt compelled to be myself and to do what I'm guided to do, no matter what other people thought about it.
The consequence of my being myself is that some people have called me everything from conceited to crazy. I�ve been told that I'm making wrong choices. I�ve been told to let go of my integrity and following Spirit and to do life the way they think I should (a lot like most people do life).
Asking for help, I�ve noticed, brings me even more of that. If I ask for assistance, some people take that as an invitation to tell me how to live my life. I won�t name names, but, yes, that�s happened very recently. The problem, as I perceive it, is that those suggestions are off-purpose for me and out of alignment with Spirit�s directions. I know that those people want the best for me. They just don�t trust me or Spirit to take me there.
Asking for help also results in some people taking it as evidence that there�s something wrong with me. Valuable people, so the thinking goes, never need help; they�re always either self-sufficient or else the help-givers.
Far from thinking that I'm not worthy of money, though, I think that I'm exceptionally worthy of not only money, but of praise and recognition. But I believe (and have experienced) that telling people that also brings negativity in my direction.
(If you aren�t already aware of this, all of these expectations and experiences are reflections of what actually happened with my parents and me.)
Nevertheless, I keep putting out my visions and my ideas and beginning my projects. I just keep acting on what I believe about myself, that I am valuable and that my projects are important, and I don�t let that negativity stop me. I feel it, though.
The problem, obviously, is that I've been too sensitive to people�s negative opinions and desires to �fix� me. No wonder don Miguel Ruiz�s 4 agreements appeal to me so much. �Don�t take anything personally,� he suggests. I accept that in principle, and I'm working on internalizing it.
Another friend, who works as a coach, questioned my saying that I hated asking for money. She wrote to me: �I think knowing what you want and asking for it is cause for celebration! It is with this intent and approach that I invite you to consider holding your requests. See what it feels like to come from that place instead of one of hate.� Yes, thank you for that, Kendra.
And so I shall. That will come soon.
In the meantime, I'll tell you that the visions and dreams and ideas keep flowing out of me, sometimes more like a geyser than like a spring. If I were paid for my good ideas, I�d be a wealthy man. Does anyone know of a market for ideas? Does eBay have a place for that?
One of these days some of my ideas will come to fruition, and I will have no more issues with money.
But, for now, money is an issue for me, and I need to transcend my fear of relying on other people and making myself (at least in my own mind) vulnerable. In some prosperity book or class I�ve read or taken, I was asked, �If you knew for sure that you would soon inherit a fortune, what would you do now?� That�s the consciousness I desire to express into life.
Nevertheless, we do live in a universe that has its practical aspects � like needing to pay for rent, phone, food, gas, medical expenses, and a lot of other things.
So, while I'm waiting for my real work to pay off, I�ve taken a temporary job that will help some. It was one of those synchronistic happenings that occur when things are right. I was talking with Brendalyn Batchelor, minister at Unity Santa Fe about my plans for my work. I mentioned to her that I needed some work in the meantime to help with money. It turned out that they needed a temporary full-time assistant in the office at the church. So I started on Saturday.
The bad news is that I won�t get paid in time to pay for some of the things I need to pay for right away.
I am making giant steps toward actualizing my professional destiny. I�ve been invited to make proposals for offering programs at Unity Santa Fe. I�ve been invited to speak at The Celebration. I nearly have my beginning promotional materials ready to make proposals to all the other churches, schools, organizations, and people that stand to be part of my fulfilling that destiny. I am close to actualizing my life�s purpose.
If I knew that I would soon have a significant inflow of income, what would I do now in this time when I need money?
I would ask for help from those angels who could see what I see in myself, who could catch the vision, who would be eager to help me bring it to fruition. I would ask for investments in my future, not just for help for my need. I would give people the opportunity to contribute to an amazing work that�s coming.
So be it.
Namaste,
Michael
[If you don�t already and would like to receive my letters directly via e-mail, send an e-mail (no message needed) to ThisIsMyLife-subscribe@yahoogroups.com]
[If you�d like to read the archives of my letters and/or holiday letters and travel reports I've written since 1977, visit http://forums.delphiforums.com/ThisIsMyLife/messages]
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ABOUT THIS IS MY LIFE
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
This Is My Life is my letters to my family, friends, and whoever else may be interested about whatever is meaningful to me in my life. I don't guarantee anything about content or frequency. The letters will be whatever they turn out to be. If you want the best option available for keeping up with what�s happening with me, though, this is it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
COPIES AND FORWARDING
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You�re welcome to freely redistribute This Is My Life (my letters) if you think someone might be interested in reading it. Please don�t use any of it for profit, though.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
MY COMMUNITY
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Another excellent way to know what�s going on with me is to join the Heart Song Community e-mail list. That�s an e-mail community that provides opportunity for discussing a variety of topics and sharing about our personal lives. You can get more information and join at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HeartSongCommunity
~~~~~~~~~
MY WORK
~~~~~~~~~
If you�re interested in my work, I invite you to take a look at the Heart Song Schedule. That provides information about the e-zines, classes, workshops, retreats, ministry, web sites, and other programs offered by the various people and projects of Heart Song Projects. HSP is an affiliation of people and projects tied together by shared psychospiritual foundations and purposes � to contribute to healing, growth, expansion, and spiritual awakening and to serve Spirit in all life. You can see the most recent schedules at either http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HeartSongSchedule/messages or http://www.topica.com/lists/HSSchedule@igc.topica.com/read
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Sunday, 3/24/2002
Copyright (c) 2002, Michael (Dickerson) Deluno. All Rights Reserved. Reproduction or quotation is strictly prohibited without permission.
Hi, you fabulous people ~
It feels to me like life has suddenly gone into overdrive and I'm still in third gear.
Here�s the rest of the update from a few days ago plus an update on the update.
The biggest news is that the bulk of my focus is turning from my health to my finances and work. I'm getting over my cold (or whatever it was), and everything else appears fine physically now, so it�s time to move on.
Several friends have blessed me with comments and questions about my consciousness about money. I am beyond grateful for their inspiration to take another look.
One friend, who lives her life as a minister-in-disguise, wrote me asking, �What is it within you that believes you are not worthy of money?� She was just slightly off-target, but close enough to stir something important to the surface. So, thank you, Bobbie.
The truth is that even though I perceive myself as more than worthy, I believe that other people don�t perceive me the same way. All my life I�ve thought that other people didn�t see the value I have within. That notion, of course, had its genesis in my upbringing when I was repeatedly told that people wouldn�t like me or appreciate me if I expressed who I really am. Instead, I was urged to do whatever it took to please people. Unfortunately (or, as I perceive it, fortunately), I couldn�t do that. I felt compelled to be myself and to do what I'm guided to do, no matter what other people thought about it.
The consequence of my being myself is that some people have called me everything from conceited to crazy. I�ve been told that I'm making wrong choices. I�ve been told to let go of my integrity and following Spirit and to do life the way they think I should (a lot like most people do life).
Asking for help, I�ve noticed, brings me even more of that. If I ask for assistance, some people take that as an invitation to tell me how to live my life. I won�t name names, but, yes, that�s happened very recently. The problem, as I perceive it, is that those suggestions are off-purpose for me and out of alignment with Spirit�s directions. I know that those people want the best for me. They just don�t trust me or Spirit to take me there.
Asking for help also results in some people taking it as evidence that there�s something wrong with me. Valuable people, so the thinking goes, never need help; they�re always either self-sufficient or else the help-givers.
Far from thinking that I'm not worthy of money, though, I think that I'm exceptionally worthy of not only money, but of praise and recognition. But I believe (and have experienced) that telling people that also brings negativity in my direction.
(If you aren�t already aware of this, all of these expectations and experiences are reflections of what actually happened with my parents and me.)
Nevertheless, I keep putting out my visions and my ideas and beginning my projects. I just keep acting on what I believe about myself, that I am valuable and that my projects are important, and I don�t let that negativity stop me. I feel it, though.
The problem, obviously, is that I've been too sensitive to people�s negative opinions and desires to �fix� me. No wonder don Miguel Ruiz�s 4 agreements appeal to me so much. �Don�t take anything personally,� he suggests. I accept that in principle, and I'm working on internalizing it.
Another friend, who works as a coach, questioned my saying that I hated asking for money. She wrote to me: �I think knowing what you want and asking for it is cause for celebration! It is with this intent and approach that I invite you to consider holding your requests. See what it feels like to come from that place instead of one of hate.� Yes, thank you for that, Kendra.
And so I shall. That will come soon.
In the meantime, I'll tell you that the visions and dreams and ideas keep flowing out of me, sometimes more like a geyser than like a spring. If I were paid for my good ideas, I�d be a wealthy man. Does anyone know of a market for ideas? Does eBay have a place for that?
One of these days some of my ideas will come to fruition, and I will have no more issues with money.
But, for now, money is an issue for me, and I need to transcend my fear of relying on other people and making myself (at least in my own mind) vulnerable. In some prosperity book or class I�ve read or taken, I was asked, �If you knew for sure that you would soon inherit a fortune, what would you do now?� That�s the consciousness I desire to express into life.
Nevertheless, we do live in a universe that has its practical aspects � like needing to pay for rent, phone, food, gas, medical expenses, and a lot of other things.
So, while I'm waiting for my real work to pay off, I�ve taken a temporary job that will help some. It was one of those synchronistic happenings that occur when things are right. I was talking with Brendalyn Batchelor, minister at Unity Santa Fe about my plans for my work. I mentioned to her that I needed some work in the meantime to help with money. It turned out that they needed a temporary full-time assistant in the office at the church. So I started on Saturday.
The bad news is that I won�t get paid in time to pay for some of the things I need to pay for right away.
I am making giant steps toward actualizing my professional destiny. I�ve been invited to make proposals for offering programs at Unity Santa Fe. I�ve been invited to speak at The Celebration. I nearly have my beginning promotional materials ready to make proposals to all the other churches, schools, organizations, and people that stand to be part of my fulfilling that destiny. I am close to actualizing my life�s purpose.
If I knew that I would soon have a significant inflow of income, what would I do now in this time when I need money?
I would ask for help from those angels who could see what I see in myself, who could catch the vision, who would be eager to help me bring it to fruition. I would ask for investments in my future, not just for help for my need. I would give people the opportunity to contribute to an amazing work that�s coming.
So be it.
Namaste,
Michael
[If you don�t already and would like to receive my letters directly via e-mail, send an e-mail (no message needed) to ThisIsMyLife-subscribe@yahoogroups.com]
[If you�d like to read the archives of my letters and/or holiday letters and travel reports I've written since 1977, visit http://forums.delphiforums.com/ThisIsMyLife/messages]
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ABOUT THIS IS MY LIFE
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
This Is My Life is my letters to my family, friends, and whoever else may be interested about whatever is meaningful to me in my life. I don't guarantee anything about content or frequency. The letters will be whatever they turn out to be. If you want the best option available for keeping up with what�s happening with me, though, this is it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
COPIES AND FORWARDING
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You�re welcome to freely redistribute This Is My Life (my letters) if you think someone might be interested in reading it. Please don�t use any of it for profit, though.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
MY COMMUNITY
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Another excellent way to know what�s going on with me is to join the Heart Song Community e-mail list. That�s an e-mail community that provides opportunity for discussing a variety of topics and sharing about our personal lives. You can get more information and join at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HeartSongCommunity
~~~~~~~~~
MY WORK
~~~~~~~~~
If you�re interested in my work, I invite you to take a look at the Heart Song Schedule. That provides information about the e-zines, classes, workshops, retreats, ministry, web sites, and other programs offered by the various people and projects of Heart Song Projects. HSP is an affiliation of people and projects tied together by shared psychospiritual foundations and purposes � to contribute to healing, growth, expansion, and spiritual awakening and to serve Spirit in all life. You can see the most recent schedules at either http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HeartSongSchedule/messages or http://www.topica.com/lists/HSSchedule@igc.topica.com/read
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