THIS IS MY LIFE
Thursday, 9/12/2002
Copyright (c) 2002, Michael (Dickerson) Deluno. All Rights Reserved. Reproduction or quotation is strictly prohibited without permission.

Hi, you ~

Here it is. I'm finally going to write about something other than Cassandra. Do I hear someone cheering?

In order to get myself moving with these, I'm going to allow myself to write about bits of my life instead of doing it all at once. My Pusher (if you don�t know what that is, it�s one of the primary voices that Voice Dialogue speaks about) demands that I do it all RIGHT NOW!

So, here�s an update about my job:

I'm still working at Unity Santa Fe doing the newsletter, public relations, desktop publishing, development, and whatever else needs to be done. After I returned from Seattle, I cut back to half time, and they hired someone else for the other half time. She just quit, though, and I've just gone up to 25 hours per week. They�re looking for volunteers to cover the rest.

In early July, a new Office Manager � Peg � started working. I enjoy working with her. She used to work at Whole Foods and is one of the �Austin women� who�ve come into my life in the past few months (Cassandra � well, there she is again � and Katrina being 2 of the others).

One of my roles was to coordinate the annual church auction, which was quite a job. For the 2 weeks prior to the auction on August 9, I worked 12-14 hours a day most days. Not only did I coordinate it, I also worked as the auctioneer. I think I did a pretty good job.

This job clearly isn�t my real work or even a long-term job, and it�s important to me for reasons beyond having money to live on. I'm learning a lot that will be useful in my real work. One thing, for example, is how much I'm learning about desktop publishing. Another is how much I'm learning about public relations.

On the other hand, it would be easy for me to end up staying in the job for way too long. I enjoy the work. I like the people. It�s consistent with my values. It just isn't my real work (and it pays really poorly). We shall see how long it takes me to build my real work to the point that I can�t afford to keep the job.

See, now that wasn�t too painful, was it? (I'm talking to myself here, folks.) I don�t really have to do it all right now.

Namaste,
Michael

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THIS IS MY LIFE
Monday, 9/9/2002
Copyright (c) 2002, Michael (Dickerson) Deluno. All Rights Reserved. Reproduction or quotation is strictly prohibited without permission.

Hi, you readers of my life ~

I know. I know. All you�ve heard about for a long time is how things have gone with Cassandra. I do have more going on in my life than that. I swear I do. And here�s my proof of that.

But, first, let me tell you a little more about . . .

CASSANDRA:
I neglected to tell you about one bit of synchronicity. All along Cassandra kept saying that she didn�t see what I saw in our interactions, that it didn�t feel all that intimate to her, all that unique. (Recently, though, she has acknowledged that she�s able to be unusually present, which is exactly what I was talking about.) Anyway, shortly after we returned to Santa Fe I heard a song on the radio that I�d never heard before. I�ve heard it again quite a few times since. The title is �Walking After You,� and it�s sung by The Eels (who I hadn�t heard of before, either). One line of the song jumped out at me. It goes: �You don�t have a clue what it�s like to be next to you.� Yeah, she didn�t.

I also forgot to tell you about the pendulum work we did together early in July. The most important results were that she and I have been together in many previous lives and that I�ve loved her in all of them. We�ve had a variety of kinds of relationships, though. In one life I was her bodyguard or something like that. In other lives, we have been lovers. However, according to the pendulum, being lovers isn�t our destiny for this lifetime. I thought that was pretty much the end of it for her.

Then I saw Cassandra again a bit over a week ago, and we spent a couple of enjoyable hours together. One of the things she told me is that in a session with a spirit guide, she had asked about our relationship. The guide had confirmed that we had been lovers in other lifetimes and that we aren�t to be lovers this time through. (I feel a little sad as I write that.) It touched me that she had asked, that it was significant enough for her to ask about.

At the end of our time together, Cassandra said that she was glad that the energy had changed between us so much and that we can be friends. I'm not aware that the energy has changed that much. I still love her, and I still feel in love with her when we�re together. The only thing that�s changed is that I�ve given up any hope that she�ll ever want to be my romantic partner. I guess that is a change in energy. I guess she just wasn�t comfortable with my actively desiring that. Now it�s more just a wish.

And then Cassandra took off for Tucson, which, according to her guidance, is her next stop in life. Farewell, Cassandra.

I don�t promise that there won�t be more about her, but I'm ready now to talk about other things in my life. So, here we go:

Wait. . . If I go on now, this will get really long and take another day or 2. I guess I'll send this as it is.

I really do have other things in my life. Really. I swear.

But that�s a topic for my next letter.

Namaste,
Michael

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ABOUT THIS IS MY LIFE
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This Is My Life is my letters to my family, friends, and whoever else may be interested about whatever is meaningful to me in my life. I don't guarantee anything about content or frequency. The letters will be whatever they turn out to be. If you want the best option available for keeping up with what�s happening with me, though, this is it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
COPIES AND FORWARDING
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You�re welcome to freely redistribute This Is My Life (my letters) if you think someone might be interested in reading it. Please don�t use any of it for profit, though.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
MY COMMUNITY
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Another excellent way to know what�s going on with me is to join the Heart Song Community e-mail list. That�s an e-mail community that provides opportunity for discussing a variety of topics and sharing about our personal lives. You can get more information and join at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HeartSongCommunity-Online

~~~~~~~~~
MY WORK
~~~~~~~~~

If you�re interested in my work, I invite you to take a look at the Heart Song Schedules. They provide information about the e-zines, classes, workshops, retreats, ministry, and other programs offered by Heart Song Institute, Heart Song Associates, and Heart Song Ministry. See the most recent schedules at either http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HeartSongSchedule/messages or http://www.topica.com/lists/HSSchedule@igc.topica.com/read

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