Hi, you ~

So far 2003 has been a pretty good year in my life, as long as we ignore the world situation, politics, and my teeth. How about you? Here are the highlights for the first 17 days of the year. Wait. I�ve already told you about the 1st. So this is about the next 16 days after that. Just wanting to be precise.

As the title of this letter says, things are shaking for me again. I�ve started participating in a class about prosperity in the broadest sense of the term � money, health, relationships, etc. It�s being taught by an old friend from Unity of Bellevue � Gary Davis � and Rev. Brendalyn. I guess I'm open to it because it and life are stirring things up.

First, I now acknowledge that less than ideal self-love is at the root of nearly everything I�d like to change in my life. I don�t go after things full out because I don�t think people will appreciate me or support me in them. For example, women. If I really valued myself highly, I wouldn�t hold back with women � and I do. And I also suspect that I wouldn�t keep finding myself attracted only to unavailable women, though I don�t consciously know they�re unavailable until later.

So, there�s the woman I�ve been mentioning at church who I'm attracted to. I'll call her L just for the sake of having something to call her. We�ve been getting to know each other, and I'm liking her more and more, and she seems to like me, too. Yet, I found out from a mutual friend that she has a boyfriend (whatever that term means to her). So, life handed me another wonderful opportunity for spiritual advancement (or, as a friend calls them, an AFGO � you figure out the acronym).

And then, and then . . . life really threw one in my face. She�s back in Santa Fe from Tucson. If you need to ask �Who?� then you haven�t been reading these letters for long. Yes, Ms. C has returned for another walk through my life. She says she�s here for a month � maybe. So, what�s come up in me? I'm still attracted to her. I still like who she is. I'm still somewhat in love with her. And we�re still just great friends. (Just?) We had dinner together Wednesday evening and then she came to the class I'm in on Thursday evening. We�re going to spend some time with Gary together on Monday. I'm really happy to see her, despite how it sounds. It�s just AFGO, though. Hallelujah! I love to grow.

A friend made an interesting comment about her (which, of course, was really about herself). There are quite a few people here who�ve heard about C but who hadn�t met her. M.J. was one of them. When I pointed C out to her, she commented that C didn�t look to her like my type. What does that mean? (Yes, I know I need to ask M.J.) Do I have a type? Do I project into the universe some type that doesn�t accurately reflect the kind of women I'm attracted to? You tell me � do you think I have a type of woman that I'm attracted to? If so, what is that type? My perception is that C is my type.

Another thing that�s shaking is that I�ve been getting feedback from a bunch of people that they perceive me as on the verge of some kind of dramatic expansion into my destiny. Several people have said they think I have power and ability that I'm not seeing or acknowledging, let alone putting out into the world. One of them even said that she thinks it�s part of her work to help me get my work out into the public eye. We shall see.

I went to Susan Jayne Weiss� comedy show �This Little Light o� Mine� twice on 2 consecutive evenings. I love her work. Susan took spirituality, New Thought, holistic health, the New Age, the Santa Fe experience, and more and made them funny without putting any of them down. It felt to me like a very funny spiritual experience. I�d like to help her get gigs in other places. So, if you�re interested in a somewhat manic, very funny, very insightful woman coming to your area, let me know.

So, again, things are shaking. Let�s see what falls off the shelves, what stays in place, and what falls into my life. Hang on. It�ll be fascinating.

Breathing deeply,
Michael

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