This Is My Life 6/15/03
My relationship with Antoinette has come to an end. I'm not going to tell the details of why that is. Suffice it to say that we communicated horribly via e-mail and that she and I discovered some very different values about some things that are crucial to me in a romantic relationship. Anyway, she broke up with me on Friday, June 7 (the same day that I found out about Susan Jayne Weiss� apparent suicide, of all fabulous days for it), and things have progressively gotten worse in our communication since then.
I'm deeply in grief. I wish very much that things had turned out differently between us. I guess it just wasn�t to be. Nevertheless, I'll always love her and hope that we can find a way to remain friends.
She�s a wonderful woman, and I appreciate so much about her and about the time we had together. Our 11 days together were among the highlights of my life. As part of my completion process with her, I wrote a list of things I appreciate about her and got to 50 without even trying. I wish her only happiness and pray that she finds the man who�s right for her.
I�d appreciate it if you�d hold both her and me in prayer. I suspect she�s hurting about the end of our relationship, too (and that brings tears to my eyes to imagine). I�ve been in some really desperately painful places in the past 9 days. May God�s healing love surround and fill us both.
Warmly,
Michael
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About Me
- Michael
- Santa Fe, New Mexico, United States
- The most important things in life to me are following Spirit without hesitation, awakening spiritually, actualizing more of who I am, learning to easily create reality deliberately, making a positive difference, giving and receiving genuine love, creating and maintaining a magnificent long-term relationship, and fulfilling my life’s purpose. I’m a Cultural Creative, an adult Indigo, a former hippie/folkie who still holds a lot of hippie/folkie values, a male feminist, a Myers-Briggs INFP, an Enneagram type 4, a Highly Sensitive Person, an unusually intelligent man, and occasionally a comedian. I’m usually looking either outside the box or else inside myself for answers. I’m not a run of the mill, every day guy. I don’t share much of Middle American consciousness or values and am proud of being unconventional. The interfaith spiritual path I follow includes mysticism, The Power of Now, Abraham-Hicks, New Thought, ACIM, CWG, Buddhism, and more. Professionally I’m an actor, spiritual/relationship/life coach, writer, educator, interfaith minister, and more. Politically I call myself a Green Democrat. I was spiritually called to Santa Fe, NM, and I love living here.