Still another follow-up

Hi. Some of you have been asking about me again, so here’s yet another update on my life.

Once again I'll try to make long stories as short as I can.

I'm still having serious dental (and maybe health) problems. I had my 3rd root canal done about 2 weeks ago. I'm still in pain every day, though – ranging from mild to severe. (It varies in intensity through the day and night.) The pain isn’t just in my teeth and gums; it’s all along the trigeminal nerve that runs from the teeth up through the face and into the scalp. Last night severe pain woke me up 3 times. Eating is an ongoing challenge because I know that I'll experience some extreme pain at least the first bite or 2. Consequently, I’ve lost about 20 pounds in the past few months. (That isn’t really too awful, though. I was a little over my preferred weight before this all started, and now I'm back down to my college weight. Nevertheless, this isn’t how I’d have preferred to drop those pounds. I get tired to the point of exhaustion from any physical exertion and from being active in any way over a long day.) It’s been 4 months since I’ve experienced a completely pain-free day.

The dentist isn’t clear what’s going on and suggested that maybe there’s a medical problem as well as the dental stuff, so I went to a doctor yesterday. He said that he’s not sure what’s going on, either, but maybe I have herpes zoster (that’s the chicken pox virus that hides away and then comes out to affect facial nerves). I don’t have all the symptoms of that, though. He said it doesn’t seem to be related to the Bell’s Palsy that I had in the middle ‘90s. He prescribed more Tylenol with codeine plus Amytriptylin, which is specifically for nerve pain. He offered me more heavy-duty pain medication than that, but I told him I don’t want anything stronger. I don’t like taking addictive drugs as it is.

You probably got the message a while back about my working in the movie. I just gutted it out because I love acting so much. However, the last day I worked (of 5 days total over a couple of weeks), I was in severe pain much of the day. If I had had a speaking part, I wouldn’t have been able to do it. Similarly, I haven’t been able to substitute teach (or do anything that requires talking) because I can’t reliably be able to talk when I need to. I have to get back to working right away, though, no matter what.

If you’d be willing to pray for my health and/or do any kind of healing work, I’d more than appreciate it. If you have any ideas about what I might do or what might be going on with me, I'm eager to hear them. I’ve already consulted Louise Hay’s book. Thank you to all of you who have been doing any of these things already.

One result of my physical condition is that my financial bind has grown to a crisis proportion. I had to move out of my apartment because I couldn’t pay the rent. (Moving really exhausted me, and I had to do it anyway.) Some creditors are threatening to sue me for the money I owe them that I can’t pay back yet because I haven’t been working. I still don’t have a car (and don’t have the money for one). It’s only through the generosity of friends loaning me their cars that I’ve been able to get around, move, and work the few days I have. I'm staying very temporarily with a friend and need to find another place to live by the first of April.

I'm trying to sell my old car (the one with no brakes) this weekend. I’ve been doing my consciousness work to attract money, and I'll start working again this coming week if at all possible. I'm open and eager to receive a windfall of at least $8000 (what I need to get out of the financial bind I'm in, get a car, and rent an apartment or a room) immediately. I have faith that I am naturally a magnet for money and that God’s well-being and abundance are flowing into my life now. I still know that all of this is just a temporary condition and that I am getting ready for something wonderful.

I’d also welcome prayers for my prosperity and for meeting my financial needs. In addition,
I’d still welcome any other kind of help you can give me, if you feel so called – a work project that I can do, a loan, a gift, an idea, or whatever. If not, then I know that God is using other channels to fulfill my needs. Thank you to everyone who chooses to contribute in any way, tangible or intangible, and thank You, God, in advance for the resources that I know are flowing to me now.

One friend told me that he’s surprised and impressed that I’ve been staying as positive as I have been through this challenge. I believe that we attract to ourselves whatever is consistent with our consciousness. Consequently, keeping my consciousness as positive as possible is what will get me out of these circumstances. Besides, what help would it be to get depressed and think negatively? That would only make things feel worse to me. So, staying positive is a choice I make. I am determined to become a more conscious creator of my life.

Gratitude: My tremendous appreciation for Antoinette and all of her help and support continues. I also continue to be grateful to the friend who is allowing me to use her car and to the people who have helped me with money. I want to particularly express gratitude to the person who sent me $60 anonymously so that I can’t thank him or her directly. And, as always, I appreciate all the prayers and kind thoughts of many people.

I enjoy hearing from you whether I'm able to reply at the time or not. Some of you have left phone messages for me; others have sent me email. That makes a huge difference to me, and I'm grateful for it. I hope you’ll understand that I'm still not able to talk on the phone for more than very briefly because it tends to set off pain, so I do it very cautiously.

I'm quite aware that I need to be in the flow of both giving and receiving. So, what can I do to contribute something to you? Can I pray for you? Can I do some kind of task that will make a difference to you? Limitations are that I need to be able to take a break or stop whenever I need to because of pain, that I can’t talk too much on the phone, and that it can’t be anything overly physical right now. Please let me know if there’s some way I can help you. I care about you and your well-being.

May all of our lives be abundantly filled with happiness, health, love, inner peace, spiritual awakening, success, prosperity, and everything else that we desire.

I'm looking forward to the time, hopefully in the not-too-distant future, when I can write to you and tell you that I'm free of pain and healthier than in a long time, that all of my financial obligations are caught up-to-date, and that everything is flowing wonderfully in the direction of my life’s dreams.

Warmly,
Michael Dickerson Deluno (Dickerson is my legal name; Deluno is my spiritual name – until I can go to court and have my name changed)
P.O. Box 33091
Santa Fe, NM 87594