April follow-up

This health and financial challenge I’ve been experiencing has gone on much longer than I expected (or wanted) it to. Briefly, here’s how things are going:

My dental problems are finally nearly taken care of. (Hallelujah!!!!!!) I'm only experiencing minor pain occasionally, and my appointment with the dentist next week should finally resolve that.

I have another appointment with the doctor on May 6. I had another trip to the ER shortly after my last update because of a negative reaction to one of the meds he gave me and had to stop taking it. Blood tests showed that I was low in folic acid and borderline low in B12. That may have contributed to the nerve pain. I’ve been taking supplements, and hopefully everything will be fine now.

Because of the improvement in my health, I'm finally ready to go back to work regularly. (Thank God!) I'm exploring options for jobs, as well as pursuing my own projects. I'll begin publicizing my projects soon.

I finally sold my old car for almost nothing. Thanks to a friend who is renting me one at very low rates, I have a temporary car (since this past Sunday). That will allow me to go to casting calls, find other work, and get to jobs. I lost about $300 and the joy of working for a few days in “Into the West” last week because I didn’t have a car and couldn’t find anyone to give me a ride to the set for early morning calls. I'll wait to get my own car until my finances are better (or until I manifest one without paying for it – doing my best not to limit the options).

I'm still looking for places to live. Right now I'm staying with another friend and need to move again very soon.

I'm still in crisis about money. I remain open and eager to receive a windfall of at least $8000 (what I need to get out of the financial bind I'm in, get a car, and rent an apartment or a room) in whatever is right timing. I have faith that I am naturally a magnet for money and that well-being and abundance are flowing into my life now. I know that all of this is just a temporary condition and that I am getting ready for something wonderful.

Would you like to help in any way? Here are some possible ways:
1. Continue (or begin) to pray for my health and prosperity.
2. Suggest any ideas you may have.
3. Hire me to do something you need done or for a temporary job in your business.
4. Pay me in advance for services you will receive later.
5. Give me a loan or a gift of money.
6. Offer me a place to live for a while until I'm able to rent a place again.
7. Offer anything else that you think might be of help to me.
8. Communicate in any way that you’re thinking about me kindly.
If you don’t feel called to help in any way, then I know that other channels are being used to fulfill my needs. Thank You, God, in advance for the resources that I know are flowing to me now.

Recently one person said that I'm very open about asking for help, and another said that it seems easy for me. The truth is that it isn’t my nature to be open about anything that makes me look less than impressive. It’s something I'm cultivating. Greg Baer says that’s the only way we’ll ever really feel loved – if people know the worst about us and love and accept us anyway. The further truth is that it isn’t easy for me at all. But I take some deep breaths and do it anyway.

I continue to experience abundant gratitude to everyone who has contributed to me in any way during this time of challenge. Of course, Antoinette has remained my primary support person, and she has been invaluable to me. I can’t fully express the depth of my gratitude to her. I'm also tremendously grateful to the friends who have allowed me to use their cars, who have offered me places to stay in their homes, who have helped me with money, who have given me ideas and suggestions, who have expressed kind thoughts, who have offered healing services, and who have prayed for me. If you are one of them, I'm expressing my heartfelt gratitude to you again.

There’s one person I especially want to express gratitude to, and I don’t know who that person is. I just heard from a third person that I neglected to say thank you to someone who contributed something to me. I’ve attempted to thank people directly shortly after I’ve received any kind of contribution from them, and I realize that in the midst of all that’s been going on with me, I could have missed someone (or even more than one person). So, whoever you are who contributed something to me, I am deeply grateful to you.

As I’ve told you previously, I know that I need to be in the flow of both giving and receiving. Consequently, I’ve been finding various opportunities to contribute both belongings and services to other people. What can I contribute to you? Can I pray for you? Can I do some kind of task that will make a difference to? What else can you think of that I might contribute to you? Please let me know.

As always, I'm doing my best to keep my consciousness positive no matter what the circumstances appear to be, to consciously attract only abundance and well-being, and to remain in the big picture, as Jeff Alexander says in Leap of Faith. The small picture is my personal story, the circumstances that are appearing in my life and my thoughts and feelings about them. The big picture is the truth of what we are really here for – love, contribution, peace, joining, etc. Life, Jeff suggests, works better when we stay focused on the big picture. That big picture is what I'm here for.

May all of our lives be abundantly filled with happiness, health, love, inner peace, spiritual awakening, success, prosperity, and everything else that we desire.

Warmly,
Michael Dickerson Deluno (Dickerson is my legal name; Deluno is my spiritual name – until I can go to court and have my name changed)
P.O. Box 33091
Santa Fe, NM 87594
ohanamd@earthlink.net