Chemicalizing

Things come to us at exactly the right time – when we need them, when we’re ready for them, when they’re useful to us. Have you ever noticed? Well, it doesn’t really matter whether you have or not. Or whether you believe it or not. This is about me. And it’s true for me. So, I'll restate it. My observation is that things come to me at exactly the right time.

I was beginning to think that my life is really screwed up, that I’ve really blown it. Of course, I had some help with that interpretation. Let’s say that a few people have encouraged me in that notion.

Then, for some reason – who knows exactly what it was – I began reading a book (The Survivor Personality) that got me thinking about things differently. I started opening up to a new interpretation. Then, finally, yesterday a friend came to me and asked if I had ever heard of chemicalization. It seems that she’s in a group at Unity Santa Fe that’s studying H. Emilie Cady’s Lessons in Truth. I'm guessing they just covered the chapter about chemicalization. Synchronicity. Like I said, things happen at exactly the right time.

Yes, of course I’ve heard of chemicalization. I first heard of it at least 20 years ago. I’ve read Lessons in Truth twice and the chapter on chemicalization more times than that. I love the idea of chemicalization. I’ve experienced it. I’ve observed it. And, nevertheless, I hadn't thought of it recently. I certainly hadn't thought of it in relation to my own life any time recently.

But, you know, chemicalization certainly is a reasonable explanation for what’s been going on with me.

So I checked it out with my spiritual guidance. And sure enough, my guidance says that I'm in the process of chemicalizing.

And some of you who are reading are saying to yourselves, “Is he ever going to tell us what chemicalization is?” Yes, I am.

Chemicalization is a process that happens when we decide to change our consciousness and our lives. We begin to input new, more positive ideas, more positive behaviors, more positive intentions, and what do we get? We get hit in the face and in the nether parts with crap. Everything that could possibly go wrong does. It looks like our life has fallen apart. But, if we keep inputting the new ideas and behaviors and intentions … eventually the crap clears out, and we’ve transformed our consciousness and our lives.

Some spiritual traditions call the process “purification.”

Cady compared it to having a bucket of muddy water and wanting to have a bucket of clean water. So we take a hose and begin to run clean water into the bucket. What happens? All the mud that had sunk to the bottom of the bucket is stirred up and rises to the top. And muddy water begins to spill over the edges of the bucket. But, if we keep running clean water into the bucket … eventually we end up with a bucket full of clean water.

Well, I’ve been clearing out a really huge bucket of incredibly muddy water – a bucket I had filled up with mud a very long time ago. Or, more accurately, a bucket that was filled with mud a very long time ago by life and family and experience.

And I’ve been pouring in a lot of clear water, a lot of new ideas, new behaviors, new intentions.

And I’ve been getting a lot of mud rising to the top.

Chemicalizing.

I'll write more about this tomorrow (or whenever I write again). I'll talk more specifically about my life and how chemicalization has been working.

For now, though, I want to finish with some lines from a DVD I “happen” to be watching while I write this. It’s really synchronicity that I chose to rent “Elizabethtown” today. I had no idea what to expect, and I got something perfect.

Claire (played by Kirsten Dunst) says to Drew (played by Orlando Bloom), who is embroiled in drama about a business failure, “So, you failed…. All right, you really failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You…. You think I care about that? I do understand. You’re an artist, man. Your job is to break through barriers, not accept blame and bow and say, ‘Thank you, I'm a loser. I'll go away now. Oh, Phil’s mean to me. Wah, wah, wah.’ So what? You want to be really great? Then have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you’re still smiling. That’s true greatness to me. But, don’t listen to me; I'm a Claire.”

And she says, early in the movie, before we know much about what she is to become in the movie, “We are intrepid. We carry on.” That foreshadows who she is in the story.

Thank you, Claire. We are intrepid. We carry on.

Namaste,
Michael