I think things must be turning around for me.
I got a long-term temp job through Group Powell One starting tomorrow (Friday) morning. It's full-time for as long as it lasts – probably until some project is completed, but for a while. I'll be doing typing, data entry, and some filing. That sounds OK, and it will be fantastic to have a steady income again.
Then Careers First called already and had a job for me. But, of course, I had to turn it down. It sounded like a good job, too, but it was only for a week to 10 days. I am impressed with how quickly they found something for me, though.
And there's the job that I was going to go back to through Excel Staffing, though it was delayed for a week or so. Now I need to tell them I'm busy. That's what happens when a company puts off work, though.
We are intrepid. We carry on.
Namaste,
Michael
Thursday, February 23, 2006
We did it!
I join Barbara in expressing my enormous heartfelt thank you for all of your prayers, treatments, and positive thoughts. Her message is below.
We are miracle workers!!!!!!
Gratefully,
Michael
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We did it! : )
I AM cancer FREE - ALL CLEAR!!!!
We saw Dr. Wood yesterday and the pathology report is all GOOD. He was able to get everything and the margins are negative. He said my case had gone before the "Tumor Board" and all agreed no further treatment would make the "all clear" any clearer - so from here out it's just check ups.
We did it! We did what they said couldn't be done!
Radiation wasn't an option. Chemotherapy wasn't working. They said all along it was inoperable.
We prayed our way right through it, not taking "no" for an answer!
And here we are, on the other, glorious side! Oh my! I say to each of you, as I said to Dr. Wood yesterday, how do I thank you?? You showered me with the most powerful energy there is - your prayers - and didn't let up. I am forever grateful, humbled, and moved beyond measure.
Thank you, thank you, thank you! My heart beats because of you. KNOW your power, use it, trust it, never forget it.
You are beautiful. Always always remember that.
I love you so very much,
Barbara
We are miracle workers!!!!!!
Gratefully,
Michael
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We did it! : )
I AM cancer FREE - ALL CLEAR!!!!
We saw Dr. Wood yesterday and the pathology report is all GOOD. He was able to get everything and the margins are negative. He said my case had gone before the "Tumor Board" and all agreed no further treatment would make the "all clear" any clearer - so from here out it's just check ups.
We did it! We did what they said couldn't be done!
Radiation wasn't an option. Chemotherapy wasn't working. They said all along it was inoperable.
We prayed our way right through it, not taking "no" for an answer!
And here we are, on the other, glorious side! Oh my! I say to each of you, as I said to Dr. Wood yesterday, how do I thank you?? You showered me with the most powerful energy there is - your prayers - and didn't let up. I am forever grateful, humbled, and moved beyond measure.
Thank you, thank you, thank you! My heart beats because of you. KNOW your power, use it, trust it, never forget it.
You are beautiful. Always always remember that.
I love you so very much,
Barbara
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Job developments
I‘ve had more go on in the past 4 days about jobs than most people experience with jobs in 4 years. So, here is my update on my Saturday update, specifically and uniquely about work, and in approximately the order that things happened:
I was offered my first in-home tutor jobs by the business that hired me for that. There were actually quite a few students. Unfortunately, they were all in Jemez Valley and Española, both of which are very lengthy drives just to do an hour of tutoring. I told her that I’d consider it if she could arrange several students for each trip. I haven’t heard any more.
On Sunday there was an ad in the classifieds looking for a concierge at La Posada de Santa Fe (one of the well-known hotels here – the one that’s famous for its ghost). I’ve been thinking about a job as a concierge for a long time, and I’ve applied for a couple of them before this. That’s what Antoinette does at another hotel, and she got me thinking about it at least a year ago. It’s a good job with lots of great benefits, and it looks like fun to me. I have no hotel experience, though, and they’ve seemed to want that when I’ve applied for other concierge jobs. But, we shall see. I got the application on Monday, completed it, and turned it in on Tuesday.
As the result of some feedback from several of you and also the intuition that was speaking to me, I decided not to take a job at Sylvan Learning Center. It just isn’t right for me. They cooperated by not calling me on Monday like the woman assured me they would.
A friend who is a teacher encouraged me to advertise myself as a private tutor. She said there’s a need for them and that I could get $50 per hour doing it. I'm investigating. I have another friend who does exactly that. I want to talk with her and get her perspective on it.
On Tuesday the guy in charge of the training for guides at El Rancho de las Golondrinas called me. That’s the one I said I thought I had missed out on. Well, I'm starting the training on Saturday. I missed a couple of the sessions, but he said I can do it anyway. It’s a lot like acting. Not only will I lead the tours, but I’ll also dress up in period clothing while I'm doing it. It isn’t a huge money-maker, but it sounds like fun.
My teacher friend got me thinking again about teaching as a career. What I really want to do is teach AVID (college preparation) and advance placement classes. So, I went out to Santa Fe Community College on Tuesday to get information. It turns out that there’s a provisional teaching license that I can get as soon as I start the program, and I could start a regular teaching job with that. I could teach anywhere – Santa Fe, Los Alamos, a private school. I’ve heard that male teachers are particularly in demand. And, they told me, if I act quickly and get my application in, I might be able to begin my first class in late March. I took the application.
Yesterday (Tuesday) I also called to follow up on sending my resume in to the fourth temp employment agency – Careers First. Today I had an interview with them. They, as all the other temp agencies have, loved me. They were thrilled that I type 50 words per minute with only 1 error (in a minute) and that I scored exceptionally high in being able to use MS Word. So, maybe they’ll have something for me. I liked the woman who interviewed me a lot, and I liked their philosophy a lot, too. She encouraged me to turn down any job I didn’t really want to do and said they’d keep calling me for any job I'm qualified for anyway. She said they want me to be happy doing whatever jobs I take because that is the image they want.
Then I got on the computer and signed up for my first secret shopping job. I can’t tell you anything about it because they don’t want me to compromise the secrecy in any way. And I am good about confidentiality if I see a reason for it. Unfortunately, I was going to take another job, too, but by the time I completed the qualifying test for it, someone else evidently had taken it. At least it was gone from the list.
And then I got a phone message from one of the people at another temp agency – Group Powell One. She said they have a long-term temp job for me. I left a message for her and will call first thing in the morning. Hopefully they won’t have already given it to someone else. I have faith that if it’s really for me, it will still be available when I call.
There you have it. Lots happening.
As Claire said, “We are intrepid. We carry on.”
Namaste,
Michael
I was offered my first in-home tutor jobs by the business that hired me for that. There were actually quite a few students. Unfortunately, they were all in Jemez Valley and Española, both of which are very lengthy drives just to do an hour of tutoring. I told her that I’d consider it if she could arrange several students for each trip. I haven’t heard any more.
On Sunday there was an ad in the classifieds looking for a concierge at La Posada de Santa Fe (one of the well-known hotels here – the one that’s famous for its ghost). I’ve been thinking about a job as a concierge for a long time, and I’ve applied for a couple of them before this. That’s what Antoinette does at another hotel, and she got me thinking about it at least a year ago. It’s a good job with lots of great benefits, and it looks like fun to me. I have no hotel experience, though, and they’ve seemed to want that when I’ve applied for other concierge jobs. But, we shall see. I got the application on Monday, completed it, and turned it in on Tuesday.
As the result of some feedback from several of you and also the intuition that was speaking to me, I decided not to take a job at Sylvan Learning Center. It just isn’t right for me. They cooperated by not calling me on Monday like the woman assured me they would.
A friend who is a teacher encouraged me to advertise myself as a private tutor. She said there’s a need for them and that I could get $50 per hour doing it. I'm investigating. I have another friend who does exactly that. I want to talk with her and get her perspective on it.
On Tuesday the guy in charge of the training for guides at El Rancho de las Golondrinas called me. That’s the one I said I thought I had missed out on. Well, I'm starting the training on Saturday. I missed a couple of the sessions, but he said I can do it anyway. It’s a lot like acting. Not only will I lead the tours, but I’ll also dress up in period clothing while I'm doing it. It isn’t a huge money-maker, but it sounds like fun.
My teacher friend got me thinking again about teaching as a career. What I really want to do is teach AVID (college preparation) and advance placement classes. So, I went out to Santa Fe Community College on Tuesday to get information. It turns out that there’s a provisional teaching license that I can get as soon as I start the program, and I could start a regular teaching job with that. I could teach anywhere – Santa Fe, Los Alamos, a private school. I’ve heard that male teachers are particularly in demand. And, they told me, if I act quickly and get my application in, I might be able to begin my first class in late March. I took the application.
Yesterday (Tuesday) I also called to follow up on sending my resume in to the fourth temp employment agency – Careers First. Today I had an interview with them. They, as all the other temp agencies have, loved me. They were thrilled that I type 50 words per minute with only 1 error (in a minute) and that I scored exceptionally high in being able to use MS Word. So, maybe they’ll have something for me. I liked the woman who interviewed me a lot, and I liked their philosophy a lot, too. She encouraged me to turn down any job I didn’t really want to do and said they’d keep calling me for any job I'm qualified for anyway. She said they want me to be happy doing whatever jobs I take because that is the image they want.
Then I got on the computer and signed up for my first secret shopping job. I can’t tell you anything about it because they don’t want me to compromise the secrecy in any way. And I am good about confidentiality if I see a reason for it. Unfortunately, I was going to take another job, too, but by the time I completed the qualifying test for it, someone else evidently had taken it. At least it was gone from the list.
And then I got a phone message from one of the people at another temp agency – Group Powell One. She said they have a long-term temp job for me. I left a message for her and will call first thing in the morning. Hopefully they won’t have already given it to someone else. I have faith that if it’s really for me, it will still be available when I call.
There you have it. Lots happening.
As Claire said, “We are intrepid. We carry on.”
Namaste,
Michael
Monday, February 20, 2006
Chemicalizing
Things come to us at exactly the right time – when we need them, when we’re ready for them, when they’re useful to us. Have you ever noticed? Well, it doesn’t really matter whether you have or not. Or whether you believe it or not. This is about me. And it’s true for me. So, I'll restate it. My observation is that things come to me at exactly the right time.
I was beginning to think that my life is really screwed up, that I’ve really blown it. Of course, I had some help with that interpretation. Let’s say that a few people have encouraged me in that notion.
Then, for some reason – who knows exactly what it was – I began reading a book (The Survivor Personality) that got me thinking about things differently. I started opening up to a new interpretation. Then, finally, yesterday a friend came to me and asked if I had ever heard of chemicalization. It seems that she’s in a group at Unity Santa Fe that’s studying H. Emilie Cady’s Lessons in Truth. I'm guessing they just covered the chapter about chemicalization. Synchronicity. Like I said, things happen at exactly the right time.
Yes, of course I’ve heard of chemicalization. I first heard of it at least 20 years ago. I’ve read Lessons in Truth twice and the chapter on chemicalization more times than that. I love the idea of chemicalization. I’ve experienced it. I’ve observed it. And, nevertheless, I hadn't thought of it recently. I certainly hadn't thought of it in relation to my own life any time recently.
But, you know, chemicalization certainly is a reasonable explanation for what’s been going on with me.
So I checked it out with my spiritual guidance. And sure enough, my guidance says that I'm in the process of chemicalizing.
And some of you who are reading are saying to yourselves, “Is he ever going to tell us what chemicalization is?” Yes, I am.
Chemicalization is a process that happens when we decide to change our consciousness and our lives. We begin to input new, more positive ideas, more positive behaviors, more positive intentions, and what do we get? We get hit in the face and in the nether parts with crap. Everything that could possibly go wrong does. It looks like our life has fallen apart. But, if we keep inputting the new ideas and behaviors and intentions … eventually the crap clears out, and we’ve transformed our consciousness and our lives.
Some spiritual traditions call the process “purification.”
Cady compared it to having a bucket of muddy water and wanting to have a bucket of clean water. So we take a hose and begin to run clean water into the bucket. What happens? All the mud that had sunk to the bottom of the bucket is stirred up and rises to the top. And muddy water begins to spill over the edges of the bucket. But, if we keep running clean water into the bucket … eventually we end up with a bucket full of clean water.
Well, I’ve been clearing out a really huge bucket of incredibly muddy water – a bucket I had filled up with mud a very long time ago. Or, more accurately, a bucket that was filled with mud a very long time ago by life and family and experience.
And I’ve been pouring in a lot of clear water, a lot of new ideas, new behaviors, new intentions.
And I’ve been getting a lot of mud rising to the top.
Chemicalizing.
I'll write more about this tomorrow (or whenever I write again). I'll talk more specifically about my life and how chemicalization has been working.
For now, though, I want to finish with some lines from a DVD I “happen” to be watching while I write this. It’s really synchronicity that I chose to rent “Elizabethtown” today. I had no idea what to expect, and I got something perfect.
Claire (played by Kirsten Dunst) says to Drew (played by Orlando Bloom), who is embroiled in drama about a business failure, “So, you failed…. All right, you really failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You…. You think I care about that? I do understand. You’re an artist, man. Your job is to break through barriers, not accept blame and bow and say, ‘Thank you, I'm a loser. I'll go away now. Oh, Phil’s mean to me. Wah, wah, wah.’ So what? You want to be really great? Then have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you’re still smiling. That’s true greatness to me. But, don’t listen to me; I'm a Claire.”
And she says, early in the movie, before we know much about what she is to become in the movie, “We are intrepid. We carry on.” That foreshadows who she is in the story.
Thank you, Claire. We are intrepid. We carry on.
Namaste,
Michael
I was beginning to think that my life is really screwed up, that I’ve really blown it. Of course, I had some help with that interpretation. Let’s say that a few people have encouraged me in that notion.
Then, for some reason – who knows exactly what it was – I began reading a book (The Survivor Personality) that got me thinking about things differently. I started opening up to a new interpretation. Then, finally, yesterday a friend came to me and asked if I had ever heard of chemicalization. It seems that she’s in a group at Unity Santa Fe that’s studying H. Emilie Cady’s Lessons in Truth. I'm guessing they just covered the chapter about chemicalization. Synchronicity. Like I said, things happen at exactly the right time.
Yes, of course I’ve heard of chemicalization. I first heard of it at least 20 years ago. I’ve read Lessons in Truth twice and the chapter on chemicalization more times than that. I love the idea of chemicalization. I’ve experienced it. I’ve observed it. And, nevertheless, I hadn't thought of it recently. I certainly hadn't thought of it in relation to my own life any time recently.
But, you know, chemicalization certainly is a reasonable explanation for what’s been going on with me.
So I checked it out with my spiritual guidance. And sure enough, my guidance says that I'm in the process of chemicalizing.
And some of you who are reading are saying to yourselves, “Is he ever going to tell us what chemicalization is?” Yes, I am.
Chemicalization is a process that happens when we decide to change our consciousness and our lives. We begin to input new, more positive ideas, more positive behaviors, more positive intentions, and what do we get? We get hit in the face and in the nether parts with crap. Everything that could possibly go wrong does. It looks like our life has fallen apart. But, if we keep inputting the new ideas and behaviors and intentions … eventually the crap clears out, and we’ve transformed our consciousness and our lives.
Some spiritual traditions call the process “purification.”
Cady compared it to having a bucket of muddy water and wanting to have a bucket of clean water. So we take a hose and begin to run clean water into the bucket. What happens? All the mud that had sunk to the bottom of the bucket is stirred up and rises to the top. And muddy water begins to spill over the edges of the bucket. But, if we keep running clean water into the bucket … eventually we end up with a bucket full of clean water.
Well, I’ve been clearing out a really huge bucket of incredibly muddy water – a bucket I had filled up with mud a very long time ago. Or, more accurately, a bucket that was filled with mud a very long time ago by life and family and experience.
And I’ve been pouring in a lot of clear water, a lot of new ideas, new behaviors, new intentions.
And I’ve been getting a lot of mud rising to the top.
Chemicalizing.
I'll write more about this tomorrow (or whenever I write again). I'll talk more specifically about my life and how chemicalization has been working.
For now, though, I want to finish with some lines from a DVD I “happen” to be watching while I write this. It’s really synchronicity that I chose to rent “Elizabethtown” today. I had no idea what to expect, and I got something perfect.
Claire (played by Kirsten Dunst) says to Drew (played by Orlando Bloom), who is embroiled in drama about a business failure, “So, you failed…. All right, you really failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You…. You think I care about that? I do understand. You’re an artist, man. Your job is to break through barriers, not accept blame and bow and say, ‘Thank you, I'm a loser. I'll go away now. Oh, Phil’s mean to me. Wah, wah, wah.’ So what? You want to be really great? Then have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you’re still smiling. That’s true greatness to me. But, don’t listen to me; I'm a Claire.”
And she says, early in the movie, before we know much about what she is to become in the movie, “We are intrepid. We carry on.” That foreshadows who she is in the story.
Thank you, Claire. We are intrepid. We carry on.
Namaste,
Michael
The docs said ...
Thank you all for your prayers, treatments, and positive thoughts for my healing and health. I know without a doubt that they have made a huge difference, and I now have evidence of that.
I saw both of my medical specialists today – my neurologist and my urologist. Here’s what they said:
The neurologist said that apparently my TN is “episodic” and that some people go many years between episodes. So, I'm expecting the next episode in about 107 years. (In case I live that long, I'm joking, God. I accept that I am totally healed.) He also said that I can stop taking the Neurontin as long as I don’t have pain, and I don’t need to schedule another appointment with him as long as everything is going well.
The urologist said that my PSA is down to 5. That’s incredibly good news! The lowest my PSA has ever been since I first had it done 10 years ago (prior to this) was 14, and it was up to 22 last time. So, that, combined with how much my prostate has shrunk, is amazing. He also said I don’t need to schedule another appointment with him as long as things continue to go well.
I'm celebrating! My health is improving dramatically.
Thank you again to all of you who have contributed prayers, treatments, and positive thoughts for my healing and health. You are miracle workers.
Namaste,
Michael
I saw both of my medical specialists today – my neurologist and my urologist. Here’s what they said:
The neurologist said that apparently my TN is “episodic” and that some people go many years between episodes. So, I'm expecting the next episode in about 107 years. (In case I live that long, I'm joking, God. I accept that I am totally healed.) He also said that I can stop taking the Neurontin as long as I don’t have pain, and I don’t need to schedule another appointment with him as long as everything is going well.
The urologist said that my PSA is down to 5. That’s incredibly good news! The lowest my PSA has ever been since I first had it done 10 years ago (prior to this) was 14, and it was up to 22 last time. So, that, combined with how much my prostate has shrunk, is amazing. He also said I don’t need to schedule another appointment with him as long as things continue to go well.
I'm celebrating! My health is improving dramatically.
Thank you again to all of you who have contributed prayers, treatments, and positive thoughts for my healing and health. You are miracle workers.
Namaste,
Michael
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